- it's going to be a long wiken!!!! yey! yey! yey! yey! hehehehe ... to start it off, i had dinner with 3 of my friends - tonie, papi and david - at this quaint (read - i mean picturesque and not queer : )) italian restaurant called amaroni's (http://www.windy-city.com.hk/amar/index.html). we had ... we had a lot of food *haha* and they were delicious. i specially love their onion strings appetizer and their bread pudding dessert.

- played around a little with skype's emoticons and with tonie's help, found just the right faces for her, papi and me

"if you can learn a simple trick, Scout, you'll get along better with all kinds of folks. You never really understand a person ... until you climb into his skin and walk around in it."
-- Atticus to his daughter, Scout in To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

今天, 我和我的生活

as i was heading to the train station ...

incessant buzzing.
myriad blurred visions.
a glimmer of utopia.
belittled.
ignored.
the enlightenment springs.
clinch that moment.
heed the reverie.


- True remorse is never just a regret over consequence;
it is a regret over motive.
~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

ang tenga ko atbp.

i had my ear check-up today ... good news - it's getting better!!! yey! yey! yey! yey! but i still have some fluid (minus the pus - iiiwww) inside my left ear so i still need to drink another round of medications for a week ... if the fluid persists after that, the doctor will "puncture" it a little ... i winced when he said that and he readily explained that it's only a little painful ... naalala ko, pag yung sa injection sa mga bata, para daw kagat lang ng langgam ... sana lang, etong langgam ng doktor ko e hindi kasali dun sa movie na food of the gods nu hehehehe (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0074540/).

by the way, my ear doctor - dr. chiarg (yan ang sabi sa name plate sa labas) is really nice - reassuring ba. i think because of the language barrier, it's a little difficult to find doctors who can make me (specific sa akin ha ... since sinto-sinto ako *grin*) feel at ease and reassured. yun bang nde ako tini-treat na psychotic ako dahil lang ang dami kong nararamdaman sa katawan - or maybe, they just don't show it??? hehehehe ... but still, i appreciate that ... i found another good doctor - dr. agnes from family medicine - who treats me very well and actually listens to what i have to say - kahit na may pagka-psychotic nga ako : ).

i've just finished another book given to me by jeni beybi - stainless longganisa by bob ong (http://www.visprint.net/publications/bob/book5/) ... there are times while i was "gorging : )" the book when i felt that it was too "intellectual" for me ... ewan ko kung baket ... posibleng yung topic ang dahilan or yung way ng pagkakasulat ng libro - yung words na ginamit ... pero the book is alright ... may sariling wit ... at napapatawa ako ni bob ong sa ibang hirit nya ... lalo na dun sa mga pagsasanay at the end of every chapter ... saka may parts na inspirational ... tipong if you want to say something and you think it's worth listening to, then go ahead and say it ... hmmm, sang parte naman kaya nung stainless longganisa ko nakuha yan??? or maybe it's just me talking krap ... hehehehe. but then again, i have to contradict myself ... relative yung whatever is worth listening to ... what's worth listening for me, may not be worth listening for you ... katulad nitong binabasa mo ngayon : )....

- pahinga -

it's a sunday ... and i'm working ... well, working from home but still working ... starting to get bored ... so what do i do? i dance : ) ! i think this is an improvement from my - pahinga - before -> i would apply some lipstick (colorstay na "sienna flavored" hehe) and then look at myself at the mirror and appreciate how sienna makes my cheeks look rosy. o ha! kakaiba ... so now, i dance. sometimes, i do yung "disco dance" (soooo 80's ko ba?) hehe ... but most of the time, i perform what i learned in school .... complete with costume ha : )! shempre, it contributes to how i dance e... it's too bad i decided to stop going to classes ... for reasons that i can't really remember ... but i plan to go back and learn some more ... maybe after june, i'll enrol again ... sabi ko nga sa mga kaibigan ko na aware sa passion kong 'to - baka pedeng alternative career hehehe ... but seriously, if "destiny" allows it, i would love to teach this dance to young girls ... to kids, even ... so gud lak na lang sa akin *haha*

- little black book -
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0361841/

i've just finished watching the film ... and i loved it ... i specially loved the reality-show thingy ... what made me love the movie more is its ending .. was it a happy one? in a way, it is ... but not the "romantic" kind ... you know, where the girl and the guy end up together ... sharing a spine-tingling, saliva-exchanging kiss *haha* ... little black book ended on a happy note with the main character - Stacy (played by Brittany Murphy) - getting the job she wanted and she appears to be single (i'm assuming she is cause they didn't show anything about a new guy for her in the end) .... i loved that ... for a film classified as romance, it was something new for me ... and most of the lines - specially at the last part - were very catchy (got these from imdb as well) ...

- Omission is betrayal.
- Question how does a girl who falls, no, actually jumps eyes wide open, down a rabbit hole, plummeting into chaos come out unchanged? Answer, she doesn't.
- Perhaps luck exsists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and the peace that comes from knowing that u just can't know it all.
- A clean break is easier. You can reset it, and it heals, and you move on. But if you leave things messy, and things don't get put right, then it just hurts, forever.
- John Lennon said Life happens when you're busy making other plans.
- Life's funny like that, once we let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.

it's true what they say about learning to appreciate something only after you've lost that something ... or something to that effect hehe ... you catch my drift, right? ... i didn't exactly lost something .. or anything ... not recently ... but i've been dealing with otitis media (read - middle ear infection, for more details, check out http://kidshealth.org/parent/infections/ear/otitis_media.html -> very informative : )) for about 4 days now. i've got a "vacuum" feeling in my left ear plus a continuous ringing *tttttttiiiiiiiiiiinnnnngggggg*. on and off, i get pains on the left side of my neck, my jaw and my head. i ssssooooo miss my perfect hearing ... when i'm done with my otis moment *grin*, i promise to take care of my ears. no more "stick it inside your ear headphones blaring ultra mega high volume songs for more than 8 hours" ... wag ka, minsan iisang kanta lang yan paulit-ulit-ulit-ulit hehehe. i won't be too OC (read - obsessive compulsive) about the way i clean my ears - baka pedeng nde na everyday???? pramis to eat 5 servings of vegetable everyday (gud lak to me) ... and several servings of fruit everyday (this is easy) ... and drink my vitamins everyday ... and exercise everyday ... and to lessen the stresses in my life by ... by .... i don't know yet kung pano. but i'll know how soon enough. for the meantime, i'll deal with the *tinging* in my ear : ) and pray that my hearing would soon be back to normal.

pre-publish thought (of course i need to read what i've written before publishing) ... ang layo ng narating ng isip ko a ... must be the drugs i'm taking for my otis ...

here is an evidence of how utter boredom may bring out the creativity in us ; ) ... what - a meeting, maybe ... where - in a cold room ... when - ages ago, i think ...

ok, i got the color right ... and the size right, but the style? tsk tsk tsk ... let me try again .. trebuchet .. brb

is this font correct? i can't seem to remember the one i'm using - hmmm, maybe i should write it here *light bulb pops out from head* ... should be small, georgia and the color is on the second row, third from left ... there you go ... let me try this out to make sure it's correct .... brb

nu nu nu ni nu nu ni nu nu ni nu ... been busy ... amen to that ;)

Thoughts from a demented mind ... title sounds good to me but I can't seem to find the inspiration to write anything ... But I do want to share something that I .... created : )? It was around 3am when I woke up to an anxiety attack ... I had to do something ... and this is what I did -

- terapi -