- on being offensive -

merong isang bagong couple who went to the bank to claim their respective atm cards ... the boypren talked to one of the tellers .. nasungitan lang sha and was told that his card is not yet available ... the gelpren decided to talk to another teller and was able to get the boypren's atm card ... the boypren decided to pay the gelpren 500 bucks ...

- bep again -

- happy hormones surging after the concert -

- chireh, salamat sa fitures! -

- de-clogging-

nagpalit na kami ni chireh ng kuwarto ... and in the process, i "de-clogged" ... there were still a few things in my room that remind me ... i will forever be connected to my past - that, i know ... but the "reminder" is not relevant anymore ... as i'm looking forward to what lies ahead ...

(1) natapon ko na din ang way too-big and way too-heavy comforter ... it was gathering dust and wasting precious space ... i hope it will give warmth to somebody who needs it ...
(2) used the black limp bizkit shirt as a rag - very absorbent! : )
(3) hand-me-down shirts and jackets will be donated to the needy
(4) threw away knick-knacks like a nipper (which i don't really need and use)
(5) tore up pictures and mementos

it was liberating ...

- BEP! -

at 2800 NT, i got to see bep perform live ... and it was exhilirating!

chireh and i went to the stadium near yuanshan station at around 430 pm ... farfetch was going to follow later because he had a meeting ... gates were supposed to open at 5 pm and the actual show was supposed to start at 7pm ... we were actually expecting that the schedule will be followed ... only to realize that it would never happen in a major concert ... our tickets were for section A ... and the line was soooooo long ... we had to go around a full block just to reach the end of the queue ... waiting time was more than 3 hours ... we killed time by watching people and by laughing over this and that shit and by feeling bored and by some bitching and by killing time : ) ...

venue was so-so and special effects ... hmmm, nothing ... i can't remember any so i guess there was none ... what made the concert fabulous were bep's songs and the way they work-up the crowd ... and of course, apl who seems to be soooo proud of his roots - it amazed me ...

unfortunately for me ... i had tonsilitis ... so after shouting a few times -
"apl! pa-iyot daw si chireh" ... i had no other choice but to shut up ... but it didn't stop me from enjoying ...

great music, great company ... all-in-all, a great night.

ps. two more pictures to follow ...

- need to blog -

it's been a while since i last placed an entry ... and now i felt the need to say something ...

i was looking at the pictures taken in one of my vacations to manila ... i think it was my very first vacation ... oct 2003 ... i only stayed in ph for 3 days ... i was getting very lonely in taiwan and i had to go home to get a breather ...

the pictures ... for some baffling reason, made me sad ... they made me cry, actually ... maybe it's because i feel that i missed a lot of "supposedly wonderful moments" with my family - especially with the kids ... looking at their recent pictures ... i can't help but comment - "how they've grown" ...

hay ... i will try to take solace in the idea that one day, i'll have a family of my own ... and i'll make sure that there won't be any missed moments ...

- balitaktakan 2 -
over dinner at this semi-resto, semi-turo-turo which serves what we call "pinoy-style" friend siken

farfetch : everything in this life should have context and meaning
chireh : ay, i like that. everything in life should have context. it's so sexual
farfetch : ikaw, where is your context?
chireh : i'm still finding my context
farfetch : my context are in my eyes
aneh, chireh : *looking confused*
aneh : explain that to us
farfetch : my context are in my eyes ... my context lens

farfetch : look at me, i am an epitome of being postmodern
chireh : ako din! me! me! epitome of postmodernisism

- realizations for today -
i feel lucky that i have them as my really good friends - farfetch and chireh. i realized that being with them made me more open and "unlimited" ... mas naging accepting din ako sa mga bagay-bagay at iba't ibang klase ng tao ... kasi they give me a different perspective on things ... another good thing about them - and about our friendship, i think - is you can be smart and idiotic at the same time ... and it doesn't make you less of a person ... it even makes you better ...

- taking control -

fact: i don't want to die early. i still want to have at least 50 years to spend my life with my family, my friends, snejanna and jeni.

yesterday was very stressful ... too much work to do - too little time ... my thyroid started aching ... and that was when i made a life-altering decision ... i'm so tired of feeling sick ... i'm so tired of going to the doctor ... i'm so tired of being told that i just need to monitor this and that thing about my body .... i'm plain tired ... i'm going to start doing things to make me feel better ... i know i will falter once in a while but i envision myself succeeding in this crusade *nakssss* ...

i bought a book on the natural things that are good for me ...
and then i came up with a plan (items in no particular order) -
1) red wine in small amounts every day *reservatrol* (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reservatrol)
2) black currant (http://www.lef.org/magazine/mag2001/mar2001_report_berries_1.html)
3) go organic - whenever possible
4) veggies and fruits ... veggies and fruits ... veggies and fruits ...
5) lifepak? a little expensive but regulates my bowel movement ... thinking about it
6) exercise ... exercise ... exercise ...
7) get a dog
8) go back to my faith
9) laugh
10) live

- my very first build -

i've just had my first taste of programming - for real. i felt so proud after receiving the notification - it looks something like this ...

Modified files:
..\..\..\..\program.c , ME!, 222377 , 222407 , if (IsSomething(Something->Something) && sizeof(Something)!=sizeof(char))
Generated at Tue Jul 18 18:30:00 2006

- sa gitna ng pagkain ng BK mala whopper meal -

jeni, basa ...

Oh, oh, oh
For the longest time
Oh, oh, oh
For the longest timeIf you said goodbye to me tonight
There would still be music left to writeWhat else could I do
I'm so inspired by you
That hasn't happened for the longest time

Once I thought my innocence was gone
Now I know that happiness goes on
That's where you found me
When you put your arms around me
I haven't been there for the longest time

Oh, oh, oh
For the longest time
Oh, oh, oh
For the longest
I'm that voice you're hearing in the hall
And the greatest miracle of allIs how I need you
And how you needed me too
That hasn't happened for the longest time

Maybe this won't last very long
But you feel so right
And I could be wrong
Maybe I've been hoping too hard
But I've gone this far
And it's more than I hoped for

Who knows how much further we'll go on
Maybe I'll be sorry when you're gone
I'll take my chances
I forgot how nice romance is
I haven't been there for the longest time

I had second thoughts at the start
I said to myself
Hold on to your heart
Now I know the woman that you are
You're wonderful so far
And it's more than I hoped for

I don't care what consequence it brings
I have been a fool for lesser things
I want you so badI think you ought to know that
I intend to hold you for the longest time

- out with the old, in with the new -

after more than 3 years, i finally got around to replacing my bike (expense shared by me and jeni) ... and here it is ... many thanks to chireh for the pictures ... brukala ka talaga, ni ... pero salamat pa din : ) ...

- bio-data for my kid -
*walang kokontra! kasama eto sa living my life to the fullest*

Name : Snejanna (sne-ha-na)
Birthday : on or before 2008
Nickname : Janna (galing sa akin) at Isne (galing kay jan - "isne ... menaki!")

- balitaktakan -

for some unknown rison, ganto ang takbo ng mga usapan namin nila chireh at farfetch nitong mga nakaraang araw (nde eto verbatim ... well, almost : ) )...

aneh to chireh : na-confirm ko na na it's asyong aksaya and not aKsyong aksaya .. ang source - wikipedia - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chiquito (ang parating sinasabi ni chireh ay aKsyong aksaya ... mas bagay daw :P)

farfetch : mang kepweng, nde ba si cachupoy yun?
aneh : si chiquito kaya ...
chireh : nde ba iisa lang si cachupoy at chiquito???

farfetch : uy, zuma saka galema - anak ni zuma
chireh : nakakatakot yun!!!
aneh : cno nga yung gumanap na galema
farfetch, chireh : nagsabi ng this and that actress
aneh : jennylyn?? igu-google ko ...
ang result ng google-ize ko -> http://imdb.com/title/tt0273080/


farfetch : cno ang gusto mong gumanap na artista sa true-to-life movie mo?
chireh : gusto ko si ruffa mae quinto
farfetch : e cnong gaganap na aneh at papi?
aneh : ayus-ayusin mo ang sagot mo ...
chireh : si aneh, yung kontrabida na ... si andrea del rosario
aneh : oke, pede na .. si farfetch naman
farfetch : magtino ka ...
chireh : cno sa yo???
aneh : gusto mo ba si piolo pascual?
farfetch : pede na si dominic ochoa

farfetch : uy, nagka-comeback si lotlot .. hiwalay na sila ...
aneh : lotlot pa din pangalan nya?

chireh : meron ding nag-comeback ... yung nali-link dati kay andrew e
aneh : anna roces?
chireh : oo! pero nde sha successful

farfetch : ang successful ang comeback si jean garcia! at ang payat-payat nya anu

farfetch : kumusta na kaya si keno?
chireh : nde ba namatay na sa aids yun?
farfetch : nde nu ... si rodel velayo yun .. at kinanta na ni farfetch ang kanta ni rodel velayo
aneh : so buhay pa dapat si keno ngayon

farfetch : bagets ... *gumagawa ng sismis* ... si raymond lauchengco at keno ata e ... at kumanta ulit si farfetch ... i'm growing up ... getting down ... putting my both feet on the ground ...

... at yan ang matatalik "uy talik nyahahaha" kong kaibigan ...
... more to come ...

- dress you up -

i just have to share my quintessential song for the day (read: ONE song played gazillion times, over and over ... and each repetition doesn't diminish the impact but rather heightens it - which my ex-boypren hated, by the way ... thank god for mp3s! kung cd eto, malamang gasgas na 'to na isusuka na ng cd player)

ok, put your hands together (at lahat ng burloloy nyo plus put on you leggings, skirt and fishnet top over a tank top) for madonna ...

You've got style, that's what all the girls say
Satin sheets and luxuries so fine
All your suits are custom made in London
But I've got something that you'll really like

Gonna dress you up in my love
All over, all over
Gonna dress you up in my love
All over your body
Feel the silky touch of my caresses
They will keep you looking so brand new
Let me cover you with velvet kisses
I'll create a look that's made for you

Gonna dress you up in my love
All over, all over
Gonna dress you up in my love
All over your body
Gonna dress you up in my love, in my love
All over your body, all over your body
In my love
All over, all over
From your head down to your toes

ps. salamat chireh sa mp3!

- on death and dying -

i have always been afraid of death ... i remember when i was a little girl (said in a very story-telling manner : ) ) .. i used to dream about my parents dying ... thrice for each parent ... i guess it just goes to show how frightened i was about the idea ... i somehow got over it ... or so i thought ...

when i was still living alone - started may last year, i realized that my fear came back ... but this time, it's more for myself ... i even commented to somebody that being alone makes you more aware of your mortality ... sabi nga ni chireh, kada hinga mo kasi e aware ka ... napapansin mo ... what actually scares me is not the idea of dying per se ... what scares me more is the idea of leaving my life when there are still a gazillion things that i want to do and i wish to accomplish ... i want to work with kids - magturo sana ... i want to have at least one kid of my own ... marami na akong naiisip na pangalan e - agatha ... rylan ... kahit bathala (di ba no, jen? :P) ... i want have a wedding wearing a flowing white (pede ding sheer ; ) ) dress ... tas may head dress na bulaklak ... tas yung partner ko e naka-parang pantulog - cool long sleeves-shirt tas cool slacks ... i want to dance - kahit nde professionally ... kahit semi-professionally ... and the list goes on and on and on ...

it is a blessing that this topic was brought up kaninang lunch ... farfetch said, that if we are living our lives to the fullest - what can be so scary about death? ... it is true that certain circumstances limit that "living to the fullest" idea pero he was right in saying na you can start just by having "the idea" ... knowing that, maybe you can do sumtin about it - kahit pakonti-konti ...

na-realize ko nga e ... kahit naman papa'no, i get to live my life to fullest ... a little each day ... just being able to laugh out loud ... really, really loud ... na sumasakit na ang panga ko at tiyan ko - at least isang beses isang araw ... it is a step to living my life to the fullest ... at yan ang isa sa mga binibigay sa akin ni chireh at farfetch ... aside from the unique friendship - yung tawang walang halong kahungkagan ...

at kahit papa'no e in touch pa din ako sa mga tao who really matters to me - my family, my friends, my partner in life ...

hmmm, i think i should do this more often ... talking about my fear(s) really help - quite a good therapy ; )

- haus warming (now lukewarm) -

i was supposed to have a blog entry for the weekend of may 20-21 ... it was a great weekend ... jan was here and we went to yangmingshan with chireh, farfetch and papa d ... tapos nung gabi, e nagpa-haus warming kami ni chireh ... kaso, long overdue na etong kuwento na 'to so i won't go into the details anymore ... pero simply put, it was a fabulous haus warming ... everybody liked our place ... and chireh and i got plastered ... it lasted until about ~4am ... after all the guests left and we've cleaned up the place ... jan, chireh and i decided to enjoy the calm after the hustle and bustle of the get together ... we went to the rooftop to just lie down and watch the sunrise (nakatulog na kami aktwali) ... looking at the clouds, you will definitely "zone-out" ... it's like you're there - but you're not ... here was my view - 101 at the right side ...






- back to our normal programming -

saterdi ... i was having chest pains ... it's like coming from my bones ... so i decided to go to a doctor and have it checked ... my xray was normal but the doctor said my spine is not that straight ... the verdict, mild-scoliosis which can also cause the chest pains that i get specially when i'm tired already ... ow, ok ...

- being juvenile -

still on saterdi, farfetch, chireh and i decided to have a "sleep-over" at farfetch's (pano ba eto babasahin - farfetches???) cute, new place ... we started our night with dinner courtesty of farfetch - sarsiado tas pipino ... winner ... ang sarap at busog na busog kami ... at the expense of having the apartment smell of fried fish : ) ... after dinner and cleaning up - si chireh lang ang talagang naghugas habang naglalaro ako ng "itlog" ni farfetch (hard-boiled una tas pag hinagis mo sa floor, nagiging sunny side-up) - we went to saia's place for a get-together ... semi-united colors ang guests... puti, dilaw at kaming 3 ... i had argentinian wine and something else ... i don't really like wine but i don't like beer, either ... what's good about the wine is it doesn't make you drunk - just "loosey-loosey" (shake-shake of the arms) ... ngumanga kami a little before 2am i think ... i commented that the "sleep-over" felt "juvenile" ... i thought it was kul! :P

- sundi -

the reason for the sleep-over was our planned trip to fulong to watch the sunrise - meaning, it will be a very early start for the three of us ... we got to the songshan train station before 422 am (this was the schedule of our train) ... we arrived at fulong around 530 ... unfortunately, sikat na halos ang araw pagdating namin sa beach ... but just the same ...

naglatag kami sa isang malilim na side ng beach ... at dun kami umupo ... here's my feet ... frolicking in the sand (baket ko 'to kelangang i-post? wala lang : ) )



at dun kami humiga ...


at dun kami natulog .. we slept for like 2 hours!... winner matulog sa beach ... winner matulog sa sand ... kakaibang calm ang binigay nung experience ... i think it was a first for me ... funny thing was that, medyo inuulan kami pero dedma kaming tatlo ... kumuha lang kami ng payong tas tinuloy namin ang tulog (ng may payong)... i even remember holding on to my umbrella - habang nakanganga - kasi baka liparin ng hangin ... pero dahil sa ulan, nabiyayaan naman kami nito -

we decided to move out of our place around 830 ... at naligo kami sa dagat ... nagpabasa sa tubig-alat ... nagpadala sa alon ... marvelous ...

two more pictures of the sky and fulong beach ...

... 3 months and counting ... i feel so lucky ...

- it's another school night, roy -

chireh, farfetch and i had another mid-week gimik ... we first had our dinner at wanton mien *waw, sosi hehehe* at around 730 ... we went back to the office to work some more ... and decided to pack our things a little before 10 ... first stop was fisfark (http://www.taipeitravel.net/article.asp?pcode=2&indexId=53&mrtId=26&uId=466&pageNo=1) ... sabi nila, ok daw ang fisfark para sa cruisin ... shempre, curious kami kaya kami nagpunta ... the fark is actually nice although yung nasa gitnang structure e parang ginagamit na pang-contact ng aliens (no offense sa gumawa nun hehehe) ... tas may ampitheater dun na tinatambayan ng couples ... yung iba, getting busy ... yung iba, getting busier hehehehe.... tas meron ngang mga tao dun na nag-iisa tas parang nag-aantay lang na may lumapit sa kanila at makipagkilala ... kami namang 3, ang drama namin e mag-swing (we're so mature :P)! at ang saya! it's really nice to be kids again - once in a while ....

after fisfark, punta naman kami sa fresh (http://www.fresh-taipei.com/) ... lapit lang pala nito sa dating haus ni farfetch e ... unfortunately, since it's a wednesdi, naka, walang mashadong tao ... pero ang *winner* dun ay yung sounds *i'm so 80s!* ... kasi mga luma tas may video pa (may projectors sila) ... how luma is luma? sa abba - take your chance on me ... Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa ba-ba ... take a chance, take a chance -- i need to stop ... like a virgin ni madonna ... si donna summers ... nakalimutan ko ang title .... si kylie minogue at ang version nya ng celebration ... basta gnon ... ang ininom ko e ang aking all-time favorite na zombie na semi-frozen ... it was ok ... mas gusto ko pa din yung lasa nung sa whistlestop (di ba no, jeni?) ... at eto ka, meron silang absinthe ... absynth? absynthe? ... hmmm ... masarap pero nde ko inubos kasi ayaw kong pakalasing ... binigay ko kay chireh yung half, i think ... maganda ang ambiance ng fresh ... nde ko alam kung dahil onti lang ang tao o dahil maganda sha talaga ... maliit lang yung place e ... so it feels private ... cguro pede kaming bumalik dun pag blockbuster day nya ... para malaman namin kung ok talaga yung place ...

tenbits *80s* sa fresh kasi walang mashadong tao, nagpunta kami sa roxy 99 pero walang tao ... meron shang katabi na bar na 9%? 9% sumtin? a ewan ko ... pero parang puro college kids e ... so ayaw namin ... so umuwi na lang kami ....

- everything -

... in the midst of running my scripts in solaris ...
... jan, basa ...

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need,
you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

- on loving people -
i have always been concerned - afraid, even - of being labeled ... but farfetch (see below ;) )gave me an answer if and when i get labeled - "i love people, not genders" ... amen to that ...

- on using the remote control of my life -
i saw click (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0389860/) ... it was a simple movie but it's a good reminder of giving value to what really matters in life ... family and friends .... people who are dear to one's heart ... i rili like what morty said ... talking about a commercial on corn flakes - " He's always chasing the pot of gold, but when he gets there, at the end of the day, it's just corn flakes ... It's all just... cornflakes. " .. makes no sense? watch the movie!

- on evolution -
papi -> fafeh -> farfeh -> farfetch
tonie -> cherry -> toneh -> chireh
my rili gud friends have evolved : )

- you & me -

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

jeni!! salamat sa kanta. it definitely made my day : )

- ultimate jammin/workout on a saterdi -

^ it's hot in here!!!! i was sweating starting from the time i left the house until the time i finally got back to the house ...

^ met up with toneh and fafeh in front of the giant bike store in daan

^ fafeh and i bought a bike ... fafeh and i bought a bike ... pero nde sa giant ha ... i only have a 2K budget ... for kids ang katapat nyan sa giant store ... mabebengkong ang bike heheheh ... ok, so i got mine for 2300NT only ... around 3K NT including the accessories - rack, basket, gel seats ... i'll post a picture one of these days ...

^ after the bike-buying galore, we ate at .... hmmm, i forgot the name of the restaurant ... it's an american style resto near shida ... i think it's famous ... i ordered beef burger and it was juicy ... their drinking glasses were cool *kul! :P* ... parang maliit na garapon na may handle ... masaya ... did i just say garapon?

^ we rode our bike from shida to cks ... to mono club!! ... tonie got her blades ... skates ... rollerblades ... whatever ... as for me, i already bought my blades ... skates ... rollerblades about 3 years ago ... i just never got around to using it ... i've always been afraid of falling .... but i have a dream of doing the U-ramp *a la x-games ; )* so i decided to start learning ... kami lang ni toneh ...

^ we had our lesson on a covered walkway inside cks a litel before 2pm... nde mataas ang human traffic at nde mainit so it was a good place ... dylan - a highschool student who speaks really good english - was our teacher ... it was fun ... tonie and i were laughing and squealing most of the time ... ang comment nga ni dylan sa amin - "we were carzy" ... tas madalas kang may maririnig - "u ... u" ... tas meron ding "work it ... work it ... work it" .... at "i'm moving ... i'm moving ... i can't stop" ... "help me pls ... help me" ... nyahahaha ... it was like learning to walk again ... but this time, on wheels : ) ...

^ i had my first fall ... on my butt ... it was a "good fall", though ... didn't hurt .... ended our lesson around 3pm ... we have another lesson next saterdi!

^ nag-bike kami pauwi from cks ... pambihira ... sumusuko na yung hita ko ... parang ang layo-layo ng bahay ... i kept thinking - "r we der yet? r we der yet?"

^ at around 6pm, met up with fafeh at jiantan station ... pumunta kami sa warner-tienmu ... fafeh made toneh and me really happy by agreeing to watch a scary movie ... but before that, we had chili's for dinner ... ang lalaki ng servings nila ha! ... tas winner yung dessert ... chocolate cake na may ice cream sa ibabaw ... nakalimutan ko yung tawag ...

^ the movie ... "see no evil" (http://www.seenoevilthemovie.com/) at kasama ang wwe sa nag--produce! ... at ang bida? si kane! ... nyahahaha ... it was gory ... can put you at the edge of your seat ... but it can be funny at times ... ang comment ni fafeh sa akin, dedma daw ako kasi nde ako nagtatakip ng mata ... natatakot lang naman ako pag mukang supernatural ang itsura ... parang si jean grey sa xmen3 ...

^ nakakapagod ang araw na eto ... pero masaya ....