- on being sad -

jeni and i woke up at around 6am ... she had to leave the house before 7 to be on-time for her 10am trip to manila ... i didn't go with her to the airport ... sinamahan ko lang shang kumuha ng taxi to go to far eastern hotel where she took a bus to CKS ...

after jeni left, i felt so lonely and alone ... i can't sleep on my bed (maaga pa, pede pang bumalik sa tulog) ... i decided to sleep on the couch instead - bukas ang tv ... the night before, jeni asked me about this "habit" - i sometimes keep the television on without really watching it ... i explained that the sound helps mask my sadness ... i needed the noise ... the silence tends to magnify my loneliness ... and i definitely don't need that ...

i had to wake up at 8am but i didn't feel like getting up ... my alarm went on and off several times ... 8 ... 805 ... 810 ... 820 ... 830 ... i finally decided to get up at 835 ... kelangan ko pang mag-deposito sa metrobank para sa padala ko sa pinas ...

i arrived earlier than usual dito sa opis ... i don't feel like working ... but i have to ... jeni has been to taiwan several times ... but this is the first time that i felt this way sa pag-alis nya ... i feel so sluggish ... i actually feel empty ...

i'm going to get some water now ... i sure hope it can "drown" my sadness ... and i need to work ...